( over this )

I think I need to learn some simple guitar chords so I can channel some of this bad writing into bad songwriting because that might be more acceptable.

a plan.

Finish this school year. If I keep my full scholarship, go back next year and complete a 3-year, general BA.

If I don't keep my scholarship, I'm not going back.

Once I finish with university, with or without a degree, I'm moving back to Sydney. I'm going to work as a maid in a hotel, or a housekeeper, or a clerk in a small business downtown. A job I can walk to, a job that is tiring but simplr and contained.

After I've worked and paid off at least a small portion of my debt, I'm going to community college to get a diploma/certificate in Human Services. That should allow me to work for a non-profit organization, in some capacity. It could even allow me to work with the Red Cross in crisis response/emergencies.

Alternately, I might become a funeral director. This would also be a tiring but tidy job. Something necessary. Something I could travel with, like a trade.

I need something solid. I want to be a comfort to other people.